Loving Sleep

Loving Sleep

Sleep uninterrupted and
Peaceful.
Nightmares kept at
Bay…

The woman rolls over,
Her mind at Rest,
Her eyes closed
Trusting, in
Sleep.

She sighs softly,
Her dream pleasant
For once.
She knows she is
Loved.

Sleep uninterrupted and
Peaceful.
Nightmares kept at
Bay…

Love with no condition.
Love for the person
Purely.
A freedom comes
With this
Knowledge,
A freedom and
A peace.

The woman continues to
Sleep.
Perfectly content
In the knowledge
That she is
Loved,
Purely and without
Condition.

She moves slightly,
A soft smile gracing
Her features.

Sleep uninterrupted
And peaceful.
Nightmares kept at
Bay
Because of
Love.

Faerie Tree

Faerie Tree

Leaves glow gold, blue;
The wind shakes the leaves,
The light bouncing off
As jewels.

The air bites, causing
Shivers
Of cold or awe,
No one knows.
Perhaps both…

Trees so high,
Blocking out
The sun,
Causing light
To sparkle off
The branches.

Trees glow
As if hinting at
Some ancient
Faerie castle
That once
Resided there.

One can almost see
Faeries flying from
Branch to branch,
Running errands
And beginning
Mischief.

A hint of a soft,
Ethereal song
Floating down on
The breeze.

An ancient kingdom,
Hidden in an ancient
Tree.
Mysteries of creation,
No one really knows…

Quotations from sessions so far...

thought you guys might be interested to see some of the fun and interesting quotes from session so far here at Berkeley.

Torrey is code-word for good reading.
~Dr. Sanders~

Existence is always better than non-existence.
~Peter~

Even for Jadis!
~Dr. S~

But not everyone around Jadis....
~Peter~

I can just picture Lewis telling Tolkien, "Yah, Middle Earth is your world. But your world is in one of the many pools of mine!"

I'm not rejecting happiness!
~Peter~


and a few more serious quotes:

Is happiness good or good happy?

Can you self-deceive yourself so much that you can't go back because you're dead to your soul?

"Innocence Lost"

Another new poem. Enjoy!

Innocence Lost

The little girl hides in the closet,
Her eyes wide
With fear.

Hurt, pain, fear…
She has no one to go to.
Is it her fault?

She pushed the fear and pain
Away.
If she can’t remember,
It won’t hurt her.

The little girl grew
And the memory
Faded
To only a dream,
A nightmare of a foolish
Child.

A memory biding its time…
Memories cannot be forgotten
Forever.

The woman wakes with
A cry,
Her eyes wide
With fear.

Questions, confusions, fear…
Could this have really
Happened?

The woman became skittish,
Claustrophobic,
Trying to think,
To deal.

She wished she could
Forget.
She wanted it to stay
Buried.

Memories cannot be forgotten
Forever.
No one can heal
If she can’t remember.

The woman sobbed steadily,
Her tears bearing witness
To her pain, sadness…
Shame.

A fragile woman…a little girl…
Grieving her
Innocence lost.

Happy Mother's Day!

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!

I love you.

UTM

Caught and Hidden Hell

These poems are meant to be read together. My friend James wrote "Caught" in response to "Drained", and then I wrote "Hidden Hell" in response to his. Hope they bless you.

UTM

Caught
(by James)

Even if you run
Eventually your feet hurt
So stay here
Learn to face your fears.

You won’t be alone
I swear we’re here
Just call our names
You know we’re near
You don’t have to say goodbye
So when asked how you are
Don’t you dare lie!
Your words can’t be so far
From the truth.

Nice try
But you can’t hide.
We won’t let you
Don’t lie
What is inside?
Just share what’s true.

Hidden Hell

Pain, hurt, sadness…
A wall getting torn
Down.
Stone by stone,
Hands rip away.
Light pouring in
Through the cracks
To reveal a scared
Little girl
Who just wants
To heal
And feel safe.
Light piercing
Darkness…
No where to hide
Anymore.

Drained.

Drained

So many people asking
How I am.
The urge to run,
To hide,
Becomes so very
Strong.

I've talked to those
I trust.
I'm tired, I'm drained.
Please, no one ask
Me anymore.
I don't want to
Explain everything
All over again.

Could I just curl
Up and sleep?
But no, I can't, for
That's when nightmares
Come.

An ironic occurrence...
I don't want to talk
And yet, if I don't,
The nightmares force me
To deal.

Forced to talk
Or not to sleep.
What am I supposed to do?

I'd rather the nightmares.
They're easier to
Deal with…

No, I can't though.
Friends won't let me.
I can't hide
Anymore.

Why does that scare me?
It shouldn't
But it does…

I just want to curl up
And hide
From it all.

I wish I had a
Safe Haven
To run to and
Let everything melt
Away…

Abba, I want You
To be that
Safe Haven,
But I don't know
How to
Trust anymore…

Help my distrust…
Help me to trust.

I want to know
Your Love.
Show me, Father…
Show me
Your Love.

'Doppelganger'

Doppelganger

I fell asleep and soon
Found myself walking
Down a path through
A forest.
It got darker
And more oppressive
As did the air.

I stumbled, trying to breathe
As hideous faces
Began appearing.
They were taunting
Someone ahead
Of me, whom
I couldn’t see.

The feeling of hatred
And anger
Grew as we kept
Walking down the path.
Voices snarled curses
At me, trying to make
Me leave.

I neared an entrance
To a cave.
A black dog, not unlike Cerberus,
Addressed the person in front
Of me.
And they entered the cave.

I followed quietly, passing
Doors upon doors,
Hearing moans, screams
And curses
Flowing from them.

I felt severe hatred
Directed at me,
Claws reaching towards
Me without touching.
The dog snarled angrily
As I stopped by
The door.
“Stay out!” the dog growled,
Rising up.

Go in…
I heard my Master’s gentle whisper.
I put my hand on the knob,
Staring straight at the dog.
He backed down,
Snarling in fury.
The door swung open.
I froze, my blood going
Cold at the scene in the room.

I saw myself in the room
With two others.
One disappeared within a
Second,
Leaving me with
…myself…?

Our eyes met and
I recoiled in horror
At the pure delight
In evil gleaming
Forth from her eyes.
Death shone the
Brightest, fire flickering,
Her soul gone.

I saw in her everything
That was tempting:
Beauty, power, love…

Ugly, repulsive, unnatural.
The words echoed in my mind.

“Doppelganger!”
The name flew off my lips,
“God save me…
I will not lose my soul.”

“You should.”
I heard my own voice saying,
“It’s not painful, and it feels
Wonderful.
You’ll always know you’re alive.
You’ll have pleasure, and
People will love you.”

She moved closer to me,
A gleam of pure delight in evil
In her eyes,
“It’s worth it. You won’t be truly
Alive unless you become me.”

“You’re dead.” I said quietly,
My eyes narrowing,
“You have no happiness.
It’s not painful
Because you don’t
Feel anymore.”

My eyes darted from her to the man,
Who roughly and possessively
Ran his hand down her arm,
His eyes meeting mine with a
Look of pure lust for me.
My doppelganger wasn’t enough…
He wanted me.

“You’re a vampire.
You have no soul,”
I backed towards the door,
“Why would I ever consider
Becoming you?”
My eyes snapped angrily,
“I know what truly living
Is.
Why would I give that up
To live a Life of
Death?”

The man shoved the doppelganger
Away, lunging at me,
His eyes full of hatred and
Anger.
“You!” his voice full of fury,
“You belong to me!”

“No, I don’t!” I shouted back, pointing at
My doppelganger, “She does.
But she is not me!
I won’t accept your offer.
I will not become her.”

I woke with a gasp,
Sweating and trembling.
I sat up, running a hand
Through my hair.
“God, give me strength,”
I whispered,
“God, help me.”