So...apparently I update about once a week or so... Guess that means that nothing too excited happens until then. Or I let it build up till there's actually something exciting to write about. Nothing really now, but oh well! Updating anyway...
Doing laundry at a friend's house because I can get it all done in four loads for free vs. doing 8 loads for $10 at our laundry for our apartment. Yah....free wins. Hehe. And I get to hang out with friends while I do and enjoy coffee while I do. So I think this will be the plan from now on. Hooray for fun times of coffee, laundry doing, and laundry.
On a happy fun note, I'm typing on our new laptop. Though technically it's a netbook, and it's this little small laptop that's amazing. We named it Bree. It's just the right size to easily fit into your purse or bag or whatever and I can use it to write on my stories easily without having to lug a big laptop around. The keyboard is just perfect size and the screen is too.
I'm currently plotting/working on a new story idea. I've decided to try my hand at writing a murder mystery and I already have the twist figured out (yay!) and I can't wait to start writing on it. I still have to do some more expending of characters and all that, but for the most part I'll start working on the first chapter and see what comes of it. Exciting!
Anyway, time to check my laundry.
Wednesday, April 29, 2009
Tuesday, April 21, 2009
Summer in April?!?
It's 90 degrees outside. Yesterday was 102. Apparently it's summertime. Wait...it's APRIL. I don't understand it. I swear, the weather is bi-polar or something. One minute it's freezing, the next you should be spending the days at the beach till they close, because it's unbearable anywhere else. But of course...the heat wave only comes on weekdays. Meh.
Spring break was nice. Nothing crazy happened. Just worked, and slept, and hung out with friends, and slept some more. And worked. Last weekend we drove down to Escondido to spend time with some friends, go shooting at their parents' place (FUN!), and do some airsofting. The weather was gorgeous, and everything was so green and pretty. It was a very fun relaxing full weekend.
While we were down there, I had some time to just have some solitude and quiet time. They had all this property with roses and trees, and four dogs running around. I could hear birds singing and the wind blowing through the leaves, and it wasn't broken by sirens, car horns, yells, or anything like that. I had time to just go walking, thinking, enjoying the quiet of nature, while being close enough to people to not feel all alone. I could live up there. I wish I could. Being close enough to the city to not feel far away, but having a place almost to retreat to when you need to, to get away from the hustle and bustle of everything, and have time to hear your thoughts, essentially. I miss that. I used to have that, but don't anymore... There's just not many quiet away places around here. Everything's so bunched in and tight that there's no real places where you won't run into anyone...so I hope to find a place like that someday. I would adore living up in a house like that...or just in the country. Maybe someday...
I keep wondering what I want to do with my life...I want to help people, but my helping people is more in just blessing them and healing them and being there for them. I don't want to be a psychologist or an attorney or anything like that. I'd want to open a bookstore/bakery and just bless people like that. Maybe someday I will...I hope I will. I wish I had a bigger place so I could open it up for people to come over, grab a cookie or coffee, and just relax. I think whenever we get a bigger place (whenever that may be) I'll make it a point of doing that. And maybe even have kids running around in the backyard as I talk with the moms and all that. I really love baking and wish I could do it more, and also do it for family and friends. I just don't have the time right now. Which is sad cause it helps me calm and be relaxed. Kinda like playing piano. That's something I have thought of. Maybe teaching piano lessons (beginners) whenever I have a piano. Or working in a daycare or as a mother's helper or something....
As you can tell, lots of random things have been going on in my head lately. Just a lot of processing, reassessing, figuring out where/what I'm supposed to be doing. Lots and lots of prayers...
On the bright side, God's been really blessing me lately. He brought an amazing woman into my life who I can relate to and talk with, and actually understands. I don't feel so alone anymore...and it's amazing. It feels like God just said, "All I wanted you to do was to ask..." *bam* I'm still hurting and I'm still working through a lot, and a lot of things are fresh and hurt so badly...but...I'm trusting God. I know, even if I don't know how, that He will work things out and heal.
On that note, I'm going to finish up at work and then head off to class. Bleh. I wish I was at the beach right now...instead of getting off work and then running straight to class. But I'm having coffee tonight with a good friend! So that will be fun!
Heat wave is supposed to break tomorrow. Hooray!! Let's see if it actually does.
Spring break was nice. Nothing crazy happened. Just worked, and slept, and hung out with friends, and slept some more. And worked. Last weekend we drove down to Escondido to spend time with some friends, go shooting at their parents' place (FUN!), and do some airsofting. The weather was gorgeous, and everything was so green and pretty. It was a very fun relaxing full weekend.
While we were down there, I had some time to just have some solitude and quiet time. They had all this property with roses and trees, and four dogs running around. I could hear birds singing and the wind blowing through the leaves, and it wasn't broken by sirens, car horns, yells, or anything like that. I had time to just go walking, thinking, enjoying the quiet of nature, while being close enough to people to not feel all alone. I could live up there. I wish I could. Being close enough to the city to not feel far away, but having a place almost to retreat to when you need to, to get away from the hustle and bustle of everything, and have time to hear your thoughts, essentially. I miss that. I used to have that, but don't anymore... There's just not many quiet away places around here. Everything's so bunched in and tight that there's no real places where you won't run into anyone...so I hope to find a place like that someday. I would adore living up in a house like that...or just in the country. Maybe someday...
I keep wondering what I want to do with my life...I want to help people, but my helping people is more in just blessing them and healing them and being there for them. I don't want to be a psychologist or an attorney or anything like that. I'd want to open a bookstore/bakery and just bless people like that. Maybe someday I will...I hope I will. I wish I had a bigger place so I could open it up for people to come over, grab a cookie or coffee, and just relax. I think whenever we get a bigger place (whenever that may be) I'll make it a point of doing that. And maybe even have kids running around in the backyard as I talk with the moms and all that. I really love baking and wish I could do it more, and also do it for family and friends. I just don't have the time right now. Which is sad cause it helps me calm and be relaxed. Kinda like playing piano. That's something I have thought of. Maybe teaching piano lessons (beginners) whenever I have a piano. Or working in a daycare or as a mother's helper or something....
As you can tell, lots of random things have been going on in my head lately. Just a lot of processing, reassessing, figuring out where/what I'm supposed to be doing. Lots and lots of prayers...
On the bright side, God's been really blessing me lately. He brought an amazing woman into my life who I can relate to and talk with, and actually understands. I don't feel so alone anymore...and it's amazing. It feels like God just said, "All I wanted you to do was to ask..." *bam* I'm still hurting and I'm still working through a lot, and a lot of things are fresh and hurt so badly...but...I'm trusting God. I know, even if I don't know how, that He will work things out and heal.
On that note, I'm going to finish up at work and then head off to class. Bleh. I wish I was at the beach right now...instead of getting off work and then running straight to class. But I'm having coffee tonight with a good friend! So that will be fun!
Heat wave is supposed to break tomorrow. Hooray!! Let's see if it actually does.
Thursday, April 9, 2009
Day in the Life of a Receptionist.
6:50 AM Alarm rings. Groans. Turns it on snooze until second alarm goes off at 7:05. Turn it off, lay there for a few moments, enjoying the warmth of the bed and hubby curled up around me. Breathe, crawl out of bed. Curse the cold, find nice warm purple fuzzy robe, stumble out of the room. Check the weather (walking to and from bus stops), get ready to go. Out the door and on the bus by 7:50. Stare out the window till my stop, walk to work. Unlock the doors, turn off the alarm, turn on the lights. Drop my purse at my desk, immediately go turn on the printer and start coffee (no coffee = people frantic), check messages, jot them all down. Deliver messages, finally sit down at my desk to check email and try to wake up.
Phone rings. It's one of the attorneys giving a task. "Ok", do it. Sit staring at email, waiting for something to happen. Begins work on some projects boss left. Work, chat with friends online, scan, chat.
Midmorning now, starting to feel a little hungry but lunch is still a couple hours off. Phone rings, client who is angry attorney hasn't called them back. "I'm sorry they haven't called you, Yes, I gave them your message. It is not my fault he hasn't called. He's been in court hte last few days. No, I can't give out his cell number." Hang up. Sigh. Keep working.
Phone rings again, new client who just wants to make an appointment. "Let me transfer you" Another line ringing. "Hold please" Client who is insistent on speaking with another attorney "Ma'am, he's in a meeting with a client. He's unavailable. No I can't go back and tell him you're on the line. He's with a client. He's with a client. He'll give you a call back, let me grab your number." Goes on for 5 minutes. facepalm
Quiet for an hour. Work work work.
Lunchtime....relax, read, sometimes sleep. Or go out with a friend or hubby. The hour goes by way too quickly, but get back happy that there's only 3 1/2 hours left.
Finishes project for boss, prints it out. Phone rings. New client who doesn't speak very good English, but thinks if they talk louder, it'll be easier to be understood. "No, the attorney is unavailable. He's in court....no I can't give you his cell number. No I can't call him right now. He's in court. You want to hold? He hasn't been in the office all day, he's in court till 5. He wont' be in today. No. I'm just the receptionist. I'll make sure he gets your message. No I can't guarantee he'll call you back today. He's in court. May I get your number? Thank you. I'll see he gets it. Good bye." facepalm frustrating.
4:00, praise and hallelujahs because it's only an hour till home. Finish up anthother project, sit around counting down the minutes.
4:30, begin getting antsy and restless.
4:45, begins to pack things up.
4:50, Cleans up the kitchen, turns off the A/C and locks the front door. Rinses out the coffee maker/pot, make sure the final messages/faxes are delivered.
5:00, Run out the door and head home, by bus or car.
5:30, Home. Relax. Dinner. Laugh at how ridiculous job is...
12:00, go to bed. Ready to get up in the morning and do it all over again.
Phone rings. It's one of the attorneys giving a task. "Ok", do it. Sit staring at email, waiting for something to happen. Begins work on some projects boss left. Work, chat with friends online, scan, chat.
Midmorning now, starting to feel a little hungry but lunch is still a couple hours off. Phone rings, client who is angry attorney hasn't called them back. "I'm sorry they haven't called you, Yes, I gave them your message. It is not my fault he hasn't called. He's been in court hte last few days. No, I can't give out his cell number." Hang up. Sigh. Keep working.
Phone rings again, new client who just wants to make an appointment. "Let me transfer you" Another line ringing. "Hold please" Client who is insistent on speaking with another attorney "Ma'am, he's in a meeting with a client. He's unavailable. No I can't go back and tell him you're on the line. He's with a client. He's with a client. He'll give you a call back, let me grab your number." Goes on for 5 minutes. facepalm
Quiet for an hour. Work work work.
Lunchtime....relax, read, sometimes sleep. Or go out with a friend or hubby. The hour goes by way too quickly, but get back happy that there's only 3 1/2 hours left.
Finishes project for boss, prints it out. Phone rings. New client who doesn't speak very good English, but thinks if they talk louder, it'll be easier to be understood. "No, the attorney is unavailable. He's in court....no I can't give you his cell number. No I can't call him right now. He's in court. You want to hold? He hasn't been in the office all day, he's in court till 5. He wont' be in today. No. I'm just the receptionist. I'll make sure he gets your message. No I can't guarantee he'll call you back today. He's in court. May I get your number? Thank you. I'll see he gets it. Good bye." facepalm frustrating.
4:00, praise and hallelujahs because it's only an hour till home. Finish up anthother project, sit around counting down the minutes.
4:30, begin getting antsy and restless.
4:45, begins to pack things up.
4:50, Cleans up the kitchen, turns off the A/C and locks the front door. Rinses out the coffee maker/pot, make sure the final messages/faxes are delivered.
5:00, Run out the door and head home, by bus or car.
5:30, Home. Relax. Dinner. Laugh at how ridiculous job is...
12:00, go to bed. Ready to get up in the morning and do it all over again.
Wednesday, April 8, 2009
Been a while....
So....been a while since I've blogged. Just haven't had the time or energy, to be honest. Been a long stretch getting to Spring Break. And I only have 2 classes, which seems kinda pathetic that I'm so worn out from it, but add in working 9 hours a day, being married, and getting to class...it's tiring.
Been realizing something for a while now...9 months and Hubby graduates. Then we don't know where we'll be. We might stay here for a little while, or move, depending on what he gets for a job. Been married for about 7 months now (wow!!), and the way the time's been flying has made me realize how quickly years go by. So...9 months is going to fly by, and before we know it, things are all changed again. Plus best friends are all getting married this summer, and I don't know where they'll end up after being married...it's hard being an adult. I get so worn out and sad though, cause I know my friends who are still in school aren't thinking in those terms really (no blame there, if you have a year or two left, you're not really thinking in terms of where you or your friends will be in a semester), but....it's been hitting me really hard. 9 months or so (maybe a year), and everything will be changed. We might still be in this area, in all probability, we'll be moved at least 2 hours away, if not more. It's made me make it an effort to hang out with friends. It sounds silly but the semester is almost over (6 weeks counting finals and Spring Break?) , then it's the summer where everyone goes home (probably), and next thing you know, it's the last semester, and God only knows what we'll be doing after that.
It's a funny double-perspective that happens. Because on the one hand, it makes you hold on tight to your friends and spend time with them, and on the other hand, it makes you annoyed and frustrated dealing with "little" problems that aren't going to matter in the "real" world. Like homework, tests, whether you should go do this or that, if going to Commons will screw up your homework schedule, etc... I'm patient (usually!) with stuff like this, but it's sometimes frustrating cause it's like, "Ok....but that's not going to matter in a year when you're graduated! It's a wonderful balance to practice. I think I've been doing it ok....hopefully. I'm trying at least.
I've been having some bad days....especially last night. It was just a bad day. I couldn't stop thinking about stuff, and couldn't get images out of my head. And I was just frustrated because I was wishing/wanting/begging for someone I could talk to who would understand what I was going through...Aaron's amazing at listening and holding and comforting...but there are some things he only understands through proxy (right term I think?) because he's a guy. I know it's a long shot...but I've been aching for someone who I can talk to, who's been through it, who understands, to talk with. Cry with, pray with....and I don't...it's just so hard. There are many women I know I can talk with and ask for pray from, but...it's different. Things like schedules, being 3000 miles away, etc. I don't know...I just pray God helps somehow.
Speaking of God...my walk's going...I don't know the right term. Better? I guess that's right one. Heh. I'm not...feeling as close to God as I hope to be one day, but...I'm at peace, and He's been showing me His love in many ways. I've been praying more, and reading more. 2 Corinthians is an amazing book (thanks Matt for the tip!), and...I don't know. I guess I'm just at that point where I want to get closer to God and I want to trust Him, even though I don't know how...I'm trusting He'll teach me in that. I've also...I've realized how much He's been there for me, even when I thought He wasn't. It's been an interesting journey so far, but I know I'm doing better because when I've been so depressed and in dark places, I've begun praying/crying again. It's a start.
Lots of writing ideas going on in my head at the moment....not going to do much about them until I get my laptop thing in the summer. Aaron and I have decided to do our "big" purchases in the summer when we're both working FT and am making a decent amount of money. Hopefully save some as well, we've been trying but we hardly make enough to start saving, unfortunately. We've been doing our best, though. So hopefully over the summer we can get those big things we need. I've begun doing a little bit of the rearranging I'm hoping to do. It's slow going with work and school, but I'm hoping to Thursday night at least move the boxes into the other bedroom and that big table we have that I'm going to use as a craft's table. Then move my writing desk out into the living room, so I have my own space to work on stuff while Aaron's working on his projects too. We'll see how that all goes.
Now I should get back to work. Folding fliers, stuffing them into envelopes, labeling and stamping envelopes. Whee! Heh. Best thing is I get paid to do it. What a life. Hehe.
Been realizing something for a while now...9 months and Hubby graduates. Then we don't know where we'll be. We might stay here for a little while, or move, depending on what he gets for a job. Been married for about 7 months now (wow!!), and the way the time's been flying has made me realize how quickly years go by. So...9 months is going to fly by, and before we know it, things are all changed again. Plus best friends are all getting married this summer, and I don't know where they'll end up after being married...it's hard being an adult. I get so worn out and sad though, cause I know my friends who are still in school aren't thinking in those terms really (no blame there, if you have a year or two left, you're not really thinking in terms of where you or your friends will be in a semester), but....it's been hitting me really hard. 9 months or so (maybe a year), and everything will be changed. We might still be in this area, in all probability, we'll be moved at least 2 hours away, if not more. It's made me make it an effort to hang out with friends. It sounds silly but the semester is almost over (6 weeks counting finals and Spring Break?) , then it's the summer where everyone goes home (probably), and next thing you know, it's the last semester, and God only knows what we'll be doing after that.
It's a funny double-perspective that happens. Because on the one hand, it makes you hold on tight to your friends and spend time with them, and on the other hand, it makes you annoyed and frustrated dealing with "little" problems that aren't going to matter in the "real" world. Like homework, tests, whether you should go do this or that, if going to Commons will screw up your homework schedule, etc... I'm patient (usually!) with stuff like this, but it's sometimes frustrating cause it's like, "Ok....but that's not going to matter in a year when you're graduated! It's a wonderful balance to practice. I think I've been doing it ok....hopefully. I'm trying at least.
I've been having some bad days....especially last night. It was just a bad day. I couldn't stop thinking about stuff, and couldn't get images out of my head. And I was just frustrated because I was wishing/wanting/begging for someone I could talk to who would understand what I was going through...Aaron's amazing at listening and holding and comforting...but there are some things he only understands through proxy (right term I think?) because he's a guy. I know it's a long shot...but I've been aching for someone who I can talk to, who's been through it, who understands, to talk with. Cry with, pray with....and I don't...it's just so hard. There are many women I know I can talk with and ask for pray from, but...it's different. Things like schedules, being 3000 miles away, etc. I don't know...I just pray God helps somehow.
Speaking of God...my walk's going...I don't know the right term. Better? I guess that's right one. Heh. I'm not...feeling as close to God as I hope to be one day, but...I'm at peace, and He's been showing me His love in many ways. I've been praying more, and reading more. 2 Corinthians is an amazing book (thanks Matt for the tip!), and...I don't know. I guess I'm just at that point where I want to get closer to God and I want to trust Him, even though I don't know how...I'm trusting He'll teach me in that. I've also...I've realized how much He's been there for me, even when I thought He wasn't. It's been an interesting journey so far, but I know I'm doing better because when I've been so depressed and in dark places, I've begun praying/crying again. It's a start.
Lots of writing ideas going on in my head at the moment....not going to do much about them until I get my laptop thing in the summer. Aaron and I have decided to do our "big" purchases in the summer when we're both working FT and am making a decent amount of money. Hopefully save some as well, we've been trying but we hardly make enough to start saving, unfortunately. We've been doing our best, though. So hopefully over the summer we can get those big things we need. I've begun doing a little bit of the rearranging I'm hoping to do. It's slow going with work and school, but I'm hoping to Thursday night at least move the boxes into the other bedroom and that big table we have that I'm going to use as a craft's table. Then move my writing desk out into the living room, so I have my own space to work on stuff while Aaron's working on his projects too. We'll see how that all goes.
Now I should get back to work. Folding fliers, stuffing them into envelopes, labeling and stamping envelopes. Whee! Heh. Best thing is I get paid to do it. What a life. Hehe.
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