Life the Universe and Everything....

So...apparently I update about once a week or so... Guess that means that nothing too excited happens until then. Or I let it build up till there's actually something exciting to write about. Nothing really now, but oh well! Updating anyway...

Doing laundry at a friend's house because I can get it all done in four loads for free vs. doing 8 loads for $10 at our laundry for our apartment. Yah....free wins. Hehe. And I get to hang out with friends while I do and enjoy coffee while I do. So I think this will be the plan from now on. Hooray for fun times of coffee, laundry doing, and laundry.

On a happy fun note, I'm typing on our new laptop. Though technically it's a netbook, and it's this little small laptop that's amazing. We named it Bree. It's just the right size to easily fit into your purse or bag or whatever and I can use it to write on my stories easily without having to lug a big laptop around. The keyboard is just perfect size and the screen is too.

I'm currently plotting/working on a new story idea. I've decided to try my hand at writing a murder mystery and I already have the twist figured out (yay!) and I can't wait to start writing on it. I still have to do some more expending of characters and all that, but for the most part I'll start working on the first chapter and see what comes of it. Exciting!

Anyway, time to check my laundry.

Story

So I'm working on a new story, and I tried to post it up on here, but something about it wasn't getting recognized...which makes me sad. I'm wondering if it was the font or something. I'll keep trying.

Anyway...yesterday was a decent day. Not too bad, kinda long. I broke down pretty hard last night over some stuff...I'm realizing those are becoming much more regular now. Guess that's a good thing. It's the kind of breakdown you have when you can't even pray besides sobbing, because you have no words to speak, to anyone, let alone God. Aaron's been getting more hopeful, I'm still struggling with the idea of God's goodness in the midst of a decaying horrible evil world. And frankly, I don't know how to reconcile things I know and God. I don't know if I will ever see the goodness of the Lord or have it revealed to me, and I'm wondering if I would even recognize it for what it was, if He did. I'm...well...I'm not doing anything. I'm waiting on God, albeit sometimes angrily. The Bible says, "Shall not the Judge of all the earth do what is just?"

I just don't know anymore...I guess I'm stubbornly holding on to something I can't see and am unsure of, but won't let go.