Of course this is happening inside your head, Harry, but why on earth should that mean it is not real?

Well, it's been almost a month since I last talked with you. I would love to say that's because life has been crazy and busy and going going going....


But.

In reality, it's just been going, and not very exciting and nothing worthwhile to actually blog about. (I don't even want to think about the last time I journaled was! I should get back to that too....).


October is nearly over. When on earth did that happen? All of a sudden, November is suddenly saying hello. The weather certainly has been feeling that sudden as well. It almost just decided, "Oh you know what, it's almost November. We should probably stop mucking about", and now it's been rainy and cloudy and chilly for the last two weeks. Needless to say, I am loving this weather! 


Saturday was one busy long day, but in a really fun way. I had a baby shower and a birthday party! (No, not for me.)  


The baby shower was in honor of my dear friend and also Maid of Honor who is due in 3 weeks! The shower was lovely and not too crazy. It was also simply wonderful to be able to see her and hang out. Her little boy is about ready to come any day now, which is very exciting! It's always interesting to think back and realize how much we've done and been through together.  I remember one summer visiting Hubby who was living on campus at the time and meeting her outside the doors and her excitedly showing me the picture of the wedding gown she had just gotten. Seems like such a long time ago that we were both planning our weddings and getting excited and overjoyed about being married, and now it's been over 2 years for me, a year for her, and she's about to become a momma. Wow. Time flies. 


The birthday party was for another dear friend (whose birthday is technically tomorrow). She wanted to have an autumnal celebration/birthday party where everyone would bring a favorite autumnal food or drink and also a poem/story to read. While I was thinking last week on what to bring on both accounts, I remembered when I was younger, we used to always make this delicious mini-pumpkin muffins. I didn't have the recipe but hey, google is awesome. Then I had to figure out what story or poem to bring. As I was browsing through my books and I couldn't settle on anything, I finally decided that I would just write one for her. I meant to do a short story but it turned into a poem. I then read it aloud (which always makes me nervous, because I'm terrified that no one will like it), and got the couple seconds pause when it was done and then clapping and a few "Wow"'s. So I felt a bit better. Overall, it was wonderful to celebrate autumn and her birthday! I was blessed to be a part of it and got to meet and catch up with some new and old friends. 


This week is proving to be very very busy. Tonight I have class, as usual. Tomorrow is the Glee Rocky Horror Picture Show episode which I am so excited for. I'm going to a friend's house tomorrow night to watch the original and then the show episode, because a few other people are also coming who haven't seen the original, and that just won't do. Then Wednesday, we have another dear friend coming over for sketti and garlic bread and salad and wine and lots of relaxing and hanging out. Thursday I have nothing going on except lots of cleaning because Friday evening, J&C&C are coming to hang out!! I am so excited to see them and to visit. We haven't seen them since my birthday, so I'm very excited. Plus this will give me the excuse and buddy to watch our hubbies interact and just shake our heads. Hehe. 


Then on Saturday, I'm collapsing and sleeping in. Well, it depends on if our guests stay the evening or not. If they do, then we'll probably get up to go on a walk, have some coffee, and then hit up Crepes and Grapes. If not, then definitely collapsing. Oh. Right. It's Hallowe'en, isn't it? Well, I have no idea what we're doing for that weekend. At all. I have a costume (yay!), but nothing to go to. So we shall see, I suppose. 


Finances are finally clearing up and getting settled. We're finally just about caught up from the cruise, which threw us off for most of September, as we figured it would. By the 15th, though, we'll be much more settled. Just have those last few bills to take care of. But just in time for the holidays! Which, by the way, are coming up way too fast. But it does mean Christmas music and lots of goodies and treats and amazing food. You know, I should probably go get that gym membership as soon as possible.... Hehe. 


Speaking of which, when our finances are finally settled, we'll have some extra cash that we decided to split each paycheck for us to use as we would like. (After paying off all the bills and such, of course). I'm very excited, cause it means I can go out and get the books I've been wanting to get and the random shoes and clothes I haven't gotten because they haven't been a need so much as a fun want. So yes. Now I shall be able to get some of the fun wants I would like as well as stop changing my hair all the time because I shall be getting some more fun things to do. Oh, the one thing I am going to do to my hair though is come December ish (going to give it another month or so), I'm going to have it done professionally and dye it light brown with blond highlights, so I can go back to being blonde with some fun red streaks. Actually, depending on how light my hair gets in December, might just do straight blonde. We shall see. Have also decided that I am going to once again attempt to grow it out. I miss being able to braid it and put it up in a ponytail and otherwise have fun long hair. We'll see how long this lasts of course. But, patience is a good virtue to practice, I suppose. Besides, I've pretty much feel like I've run the gambit of short hairstyles to do and I haven't really found one I love. 


I'm going to start a new thing today, and it will be called:


Things that Amuse (and by amuse, I mean annoy generally) Me At Work:


1. Having FedEx attempt to deliver a package at 7:20AM on a Monday. We're a business. Logically, this makes sense, right? 
2. No one loads their dishes into the dishwasher. Ever. Or rinses them for that matter. So I come back from lunch to find the entire sink FULL with an empty dishwasher. 
3. Any--and I do mean any--issue that happens at work is my fault and magically I'm supposed fix it instantaneously. Case in point: The internet was down last week for a couple of days. I called Tech Support, spent a good hour on the line with them before they told me that the soonest they could get a tech out was 7pm that night. When we close at 5. So next day it would be, between 8-5, which is normal for tech support people. Cue the angry and yelling of some of the attorneys, one of whom called my boss at home to complain. It all worked out in the end, but really? 
4. Getting told that in order to fix something, can't you just wiggle the doohickey and unplug-plug in the whatchamacallit? 
5. Having to hit the printer in order to fix the LCD screen on it. Per the tech on the phone's request. 
6. The coffee bought by the non-coffee drinker and decides bulk is better than flavor.
7. No one actually puts the next roll of toilet paper on the holder. Ever. 
8. Typing up my boss's Bible Studies. 
9. The way the office goes to pieces when I'm sick and there's no one there to make coffee or answer the phones. *Gasp!* 
10. Last but not least, the insane senile old lady who calls and leaves messages on every machine at all hours of the day. Today, I had 98 of them. On one of the machines.  


And that, is all I have for now, folks. I will post the poem I wrote for my friend a bit later. I actually typed it up on a typewriter, so I need to type it up to save on my netbook. Which I shall do over lunch, I think. 


Here's to actually blogging a bit more regularly. If I start getting new stuff, I probably shall if only to post pictures and get all excited over them. 


P.s. I also finished rereading Book7 last week. And I cried. The movie comes out on the 19th. I am SO EXCITED!!! 

The tower's built of spit and spite, without a sound, without a sight. The biter bit, the bitter bite. (It's better to be out at night.)

So...as you can tell from the title, I'm on a Neil Gaiman binge. Well, not really. I just got a new book of his, Fragile Things. It's his collection of short stories and some poetry. Very good. The title is from a short about Vampires. I found it intriguing that it's basically a cycle that never finishes. Specifically: The biter bit, the bitter bite. And around and around it goes... Intriguing.

Anyway.

I/We had a very interesting odd weekend. First off, because Hubby's great-uncle passed away and we headed up to the funeral on Saturday. It was a lovely ceremony with family on a cliff overlooking the ocean with the waves crashing in the background. At the end, all the grandkids threw flowers into the ocean. Hubby read a speech from his dad who couldn't make it out, and everyone loved it. All in all, it was very lovely and dear, a good remembrance service. Then we drove home and got back about 8-9pm.

Sunday, of course, was Valentine's Day. Hubby and I were amazed and delighted to realize this was our fourth Valentine's together-1 dating, 1 engaged, 2 married. We both could hardly believe it's been that long, but come December, we'll have been together for four years and counting. So very wonderful.

So Sunday, we didn't have plans. We wanted a relaxing Valentine's Day, nothing stressful. Hubby had taken me out to dinner last week early on as our V-Day dinner. I was wanting to do something on Sunday but couldn't figure out what. We slept in, relaxed, and then Hubby got up and "ordered" me to stay in bed and in comfy PJs while he went out to run errands. When he got home, he made me walk out with my eyes closed and then gave me my gifts. The first were these gorgeous orchid plants he got me, instead of a bouquet of flowers, because he wanted them to last as long as possible, and these can keep growing and blooming for a long while (so long as I keep taking care of them. Hehe). Then he told me he was going to make us dinner, and we were going to curl up on the couch watching fun movies and just have a relaxing night. It was a lovely Valentine's Day. I have the best husband around, and I am one lucky,lucky girl.

To my delight, I discovered on Friday that I had the day off Monday because of President's Day! I was a bit worried I'd still have to get up early to go in to work with Hubby because of the whole one car thing and I had a class at 6pm. However, Hubby's boss let him off at 4:30 which meant I was able to sleep in till noon (Haven't done that in a LONG time!), take a shower, relax, read, organize the house a bit, and do wifey things. It was gloriously relaxing. I didn't have to worry about anything, got some laundry done and some dishes (thank God for washer/dryer and dishwasher! It's amazing!). I also discovered that our lovely little Condo is amazingly peaceful and quiet during the day, and bright with sunlight when you have the doors and windows all open! I spent a good two hours curled up in a recliner just reading and enjoying the sounds from outside that didn't involve sirens or yelling. Hehe. I honestly can't wait till I can stay at home and only work Part-Time. I don't know exactly when that will happen, but man, am I looking forward to it!

Well, I have set a goal. My hubby is taking me and a friend on an "Epic Date" (his name for it) in April. Which means, I would like to get in better shape before then. So...I have decided to start swimming in the mornings, and doing the P90X with my hubby (we start next week!), and also cut down on my food intake. By which I mean, except for one meal, only fruits and veggies for the rest. I want to tone up and lose this stomach. I fully admit I've been a bit lax when it comes to working out, but with my hubby getting up at 6AM every other day to go running, and starting the P90X, I figured I should too. Might try some Yoga too ;) Goal: Lose weight, but overall, be in better shape, and lost the stomach. Whatever that means and however that works out. The nice one is Tues/Thurs I'm on campus about an hour before my class, so I can easily do a quick half hour at the gym and get to class. So, here's hoping it works! I knew taking 2 PE classes this semester was a good idea!

Oh, btw. I'm getting a new addition to my body, face really. Glasses! I went and got an eye exam (I totally forgot the air-puff they do to my eyes, I must have jumped a foot!), and got glasses. They are cute, if I do say so myself. They'll be coming in about 2 weeks. Hopefully it'll help my headaches go away, especially with trying to see the powerpoint and reading the board at school (and also driving), because so far, I keep getting major migraines. Meh. Hooray for a job that causes eye strain. But hey, at least it's a job.

Alrighty, I think that's all caught up now. I have work to do, somewhat, and signs to practice.

Ta!

P.s. Here's hoping I get some other additions to my body soon too. XD

Been a while....

So....been a while since I've blogged. Just haven't had the time or energy, to be honest. Been a long stretch getting to Spring Break. And I only have 2 classes, which seems kinda pathetic that I'm so worn out from it, but add in working 9 hours a day, being married, and getting to class...it's tiring.

Been realizing something for a while now...9 months and Hubby graduates. Then we don't know where we'll be. We might stay here for a little while, or move, depending on what he gets for a job. Been married for about 7 months now (wow!!), and the way the time's been flying has made me realize how quickly years go by. So...9 months is going to fly by, and before we know it, things are all changed again. Plus best friends are all getting married this summer, and I don't know where they'll end up after being married...it's hard being an adult. I get so worn out and sad though, cause I know my friends who are still in school aren't thinking in those terms really (no blame there, if you have a year or two left, you're not really thinking in terms of where you or your friends will be in a semester), but....it's been hitting me really hard. 9 months or so (maybe a year), and everything will be changed. We might still be in this area, in all probability, we'll be moved at least 2 hours away, if not more. It's made me make it an effort to hang out with friends. It sounds silly but the semester is almost over (6 weeks counting finals and Spring Break?) , then it's the summer where everyone goes home (probably), and next thing you know, it's the last semester, and God only knows what we'll be doing after that.

It's a funny double-perspective that happens. Because on the one hand, it makes you hold on tight to your friends and spend time with them, and on the other hand, it makes you annoyed and frustrated dealing with "little" problems that aren't going to matter in the "real" world. Like homework, tests, whether you should go do this or that, if going to Commons will screw up your homework schedule, etc... I'm patient (usually!) with stuff like this, but it's sometimes frustrating cause it's like, "Ok....but that's not going to matter in a year when you're graduated! It's a wonderful balance to practice. I think I've been doing it ok....hopefully. I'm trying at least.

I've been having some bad days....especially last night. It was just a bad day. I couldn't stop thinking about stuff, and couldn't get images out of my head. And I was just frustrated because I was wishing/wanting/begging for someone I could talk to who would understand what I was going through...Aaron's amazing at listening and holding and comforting...but there are some things he only understands through proxy (right term I think?) because he's a guy. I know it's a long shot...but I've been aching for someone who I can talk to, who's been through it, who understands, to talk with. Cry with, pray with....and I don't...it's just so hard. There are many women I know I can talk with and ask for pray from, but...it's different. Things like schedules, being 3000 miles away, etc. I don't know...I just pray God helps somehow.

Speaking of God...my walk's going...I don't know the right term. Better? I guess that's right one. Heh. I'm not...feeling as close to God as I hope to be one day, but...I'm at peace, and He's been showing me His love in many ways. I've been praying more, and reading more. 2 Corinthians is an amazing book (thanks Matt for the tip!), and...I don't know. I guess I'm just at that point where I want to get closer to God and I want to trust Him, even though I don't know how...I'm trusting He'll teach me in that. I've also...I've realized how much He's been there for me, even when I thought He wasn't. It's been an interesting journey so far, but I know I'm doing better because when I've been so depressed and in dark places, I've begun praying/crying again. It's a start.

Lots of writing ideas going on in my head at the moment....not going to do much about them until I get my laptop thing in the summer. Aaron and I have decided to do our "big" purchases in the summer when we're both working FT and am making a decent amount of money. Hopefully save some as well, we've been trying but we hardly make enough to start saving, unfortunately. We've been doing our best, though. So hopefully over the summer we can get those big things we need. I've begun doing a little bit of the rearranging I'm hoping to do. It's slow going with work and school, but I'm hoping to Thursday night at least move the boxes into the other bedroom and that big table we have that I'm going to use as a craft's table. Then move my writing desk out into the living room, so I have my own space to work on stuff while Aaron's working on his projects too. We'll see how that all goes.

Now I should get back to work. Folding fliers, stuffing them into envelopes, labeling and stamping envelopes. Whee! Heh. Best thing is I get paid to do it. What a life. Hehe.

Up and Running...again.

So, not sure who all will read this or care to read this. But I've been having an interesting enough life, and so much has happened, I wanted to share some of it with you guys.

Working FT, doing school PT, and being a wife is hard. The balancing act you have to perform is pretty challenging. You want to be able to spend time with your husband, yet you have to get up every morning to leave for work. Most times, he's just awake enough to say "I love you, Hun." and a kiss goodbye. Then you sit at a desk for 9 hours, with an hour lunch, and do work, if you have some. Read, talk with people if you don't. Then you get home, kick off your shoes, change, and rush to school...hopefully having time to fix dinner. Most times, just having enough time to find something to eat on campus. Sit in class for 3 hrs, walk home. And by the time you're home, you wonder where the day went, you're exhausted, and crash after a couple of hours. Then you get up, and repeat the process. And don't forget, somewhere in that time, you have to find some quiet minutes to spend time with God. Sounds tiring...like there's not enough hours in the day.

Well, you're right. It's both of those things. I often wish there were more hours in the day to get what I need to get done, as well as have time to be with friends, relax, and all that....yet, there's something amazing knowing you're coming home to a husband who's waiting for you. That you'll be eating dinner with him, walking to class, coming home, curling up on the couch to read while he does work. Or watching a movie together. The stress of the day seems to just melt when you're on your way home, knowing, "I get to see my hubby in a few minutes!" And you don't care that it's only for an hour before you both go to class or to church. It's the hug as you get home that seems to take all the stress, weariness, tiredness of the day and throw it aside, telling you, "Shh...be quiet. You're home now. No more worries." And you relax, knowing that no matter what, if you have each other, you can face it. As a mentor once told me, "It's better to be miserable together than miserable alone." But what he didn't mention (probably on purpose) is that when you're married, it's hard to stay miserable when together. You draw strength from the other, knowing that the other will be there for you, supporting you, blessing you, and protecting you. No matter what.

Oh, hey...isn't it amazing how God teaches us about His love?