Of course this is happening inside your head, Harry, but why on earth should that mean it is not real?

Well, it's been almost a month since I last talked with you. I would love to say that's because life has been crazy and busy and going going going....


But.

In reality, it's just been going, and not very exciting and nothing worthwhile to actually blog about. (I don't even want to think about the last time I journaled was! I should get back to that too....).


October is nearly over. When on earth did that happen? All of a sudden, November is suddenly saying hello. The weather certainly has been feeling that sudden as well. It almost just decided, "Oh you know what, it's almost November. We should probably stop mucking about", and now it's been rainy and cloudy and chilly for the last two weeks. Needless to say, I am loving this weather! 


Saturday was one busy long day, but in a really fun way. I had a baby shower and a birthday party! (No, not for me.)  


The baby shower was in honor of my dear friend and also Maid of Honor who is due in 3 weeks! The shower was lovely and not too crazy. It was also simply wonderful to be able to see her and hang out. Her little boy is about ready to come any day now, which is very exciting! It's always interesting to think back and realize how much we've done and been through together.  I remember one summer visiting Hubby who was living on campus at the time and meeting her outside the doors and her excitedly showing me the picture of the wedding gown she had just gotten. Seems like such a long time ago that we were both planning our weddings and getting excited and overjoyed about being married, and now it's been over 2 years for me, a year for her, and she's about to become a momma. Wow. Time flies. 


The birthday party was for another dear friend (whose birthday is technically tomorrow). She wanted to have an autumnal celebration/birthday party where everyone would bring a favorite autumnal food or drink and also a poem/story to read. While I was thinking last week on what to bring on both accounts, I remembered when I was younger, we used to always make this delicious mini-pumpkin muffins. I didn't have the recipe but hey, google is awesome. Then I had to figure out what story or poem to bring. As I was browsing through my books and I couldn't settle on anything, I finally decided that I would just write one for her. I meant to do a short story but it turned into a poem. I then read it aloud (which always makes me nervous, because I'm terrified that no one will like it), and got the couple seconds pause when it was done and then clapping and a few "Wow"'s. So I felt a bit better. Overall, it was wonderful to celebrate autumn and her birthday! I was blessed to be a part of it and got to meet and catch up with some new and old friends. 


This week is proving to be very very busy. Tonight I have class, as usual. Tomorrow is the Glee Rocky Horror Picture Show episode which I am so excited for. I'm going to a friend's house tomorrow night to watch the original and then the show episode, because a few other people are also coming who haven't seen the original, and that just won't do. Then Wednesday, we have another dear friend coming over for sketti and garlic bread and salad and wine and lots of relaxing and hanging out. Thursday I have nothing going on except lots of cleaning because Friday evening, J&C&C are coming to hang out!! I am so excited to see them and to visit. We haven't seen them since my birthday, so I'm very excited. Plus this will give me the excuse and buddy to watch our hubbies interact and just shake our heads. Hehe. 


Then on Saturday, I'm collapsing and sleeping in. Well, it depends on if our guests stay the evening or not. If they do, then we'll probably get up to go on a walk, have some coffee, and then hit up Crepes and Grapes. If not, then definitely collapsing. Oh. Right. It's Hallowe'en, isn't it? Well, I have no idea what we're doing for that weekend. At all. I have a costume (yay!), but nothing to go to. So we shall see, I suppose. 


Finances are finally clearing up and getting settled. We're finally just about caught up from the cruise, which threw us off for most of September, as we figured it would. By the 15th, though, we'll be much more settled. Just have those last few bills to take care of. But just in time for the holidays! Which, by the way, are coming up way too fast. But it does mean Christmas music and lots of goodies and treats and amazing food. You know, I should probably go get that gym membership as soon as possible.... Hehe. 


Speaking of which, when our finances are finally settled, we'll have some extra cash that we decided to split each paycheck for us to use as we would like. (After paying off all the bills and such, of course). I'm very excited, cause it means I can go out and get the books I've been wanting to get and the random shoes and clothes I haven't gotten because they haven't been a need so much as a fun want. So yes. Now I shall be able to get some of the fun wants I would like as well as stop changing my hair all the time because I shall be getting some more fun things to do. Oh, the one thing I am going to do to my hair though is come December ish (going to give it another month or so), I'm going to have it done professionally and dye it light brown with blond highlights, so I can go back to being blonde with some fun red streaks. Actually, depending on how light my hair gets in December, might just do straight blonde. We shall see. Have also decided that I am going to once again attempt to grow it out. I miss being able to braid it and put it up in a ponytail and otherwise have fun long hair. We'll see how long this lasts of course. But, patience is a good virtue to practice, I suppose. Besides, I've pretty much feel like I've run the gambit of short hairstyles to do and I haven't really found one I love. 


I'm going to start a new thing today, and it will be called:


Things that Amuse (and by amuse, I mean annoy generally) Me At Work:


1. Having FedEx attempt to deliver a package at 7:20AM on a Monday. We're a business. Logically, this makes sense, right? 
2. No one loads their dishes into the dishwasher. Ever. Or rinses them for that matter. So I come back from lunch to find the entire sink FULL with an empty dishwasher. 
3. Any--and I do mean any--issue that happens at work is my fault and magically I'm supposed fix it instantaneously. Case in point: The internet was down last week for a couple of days. I called Tech Support, spent a good hour on the line with them before they told me that the soonest they could get a tech out was 7pm that night. When we close at 5. So next day it would be, between 8-5, which is normal for tech support people. Cue the angry and yelling of some of the attorneys, one of whom called my boss at home to complain. It all worked out in the end, but really? 
4. Getting told that in order to fix something, can't you just wiggle the doohickey and unplug-plug in the whatchamacallit? 
5. Having to hit the printer in order to fix the LCD screen on it. Per the tech on the phone's request. 
6. The coffee bought by the non-coffee drinker and decides bulk is better than flavor.
7. No one actually puts the next roll of toilet paper on the holder. Ever. 
8. Typing up my boss's Bible Studies. 
9. The way the office goes to pieces when I'm sick and there's no one there to make coffee or answer the phones. *Gasp!* 
10. Last but not least, the insane senile old lady who calls and leaves messages on every machine at all hours of the day. Today, I had 98 of them. On one of the machines.  


And that, is all I have for now, folks. I will post the poem I wrote for my friend a bit later. I actually typed it up on a typewriter, so I need to type it up to save on my netbook. Which I shall do over lunch, I think. 


Here's to actually blogging a bit more regularly. If I start getting new stuff, I probably shall if only to post pictures and get all excited over them. 


P.s. I also finished rereading Book7 last week. And I cried. The movie comes out on the 19th. I am SO EXCITED!!! 

Two roads diverged in a wood, and I--/ I took the one less traveled by, / And that has made all the difference. - Robert Frost

So. This weekend was rather fun. We went into LA with some friends yesterday by way of Metro. Which is the only way to go, in my opinion. You get to see the sights and smells and atmosphere for the city way better than just driving around. Then again, I tend to love walking around big cities so you can feel the hum of it, with all the people and cars and trains and just everything.

Had an amazing time there. We wandered Olvera Street, the Biltmore, wandered up to the Bank Tower (which is pretty awesome close up, btw! The architecture is beautiful!), went up to Hollywood/Highland, ate at this wonderful sandwich place that makes The Best roast beef sandwiches with au jous I have Ever Tasted. Hands down. We always try to stop by there when we're wandering in LA. We, sadly, forgot to check the time for the LA Library so discovered it was closed when we got there (and that it's closed Sundays and Mondays now. Stupid budget cuts!), so we'll have to try again sometime. I have this feeling I'll be trying to go during the school year to study and do papers and such. That would be loads of fun, I think.

So, I spent all of last night unpacking and putting away our boxes upon boxes of books. I think there were seven-eight boxes. I went through them, put some in a box that we wanted to keep but didn't need to put up (like old school books, that sort of thing), and then another box was the ones to give away to the Little Old Bookstore. Well, we now have shelves of books up that look amazing, a full box to take to the bookstore, and still have one more bin I just didn't get to yet to finish up. But it's amazing that most of the clutter of boxes in our garage was just all the books. Now we have some other odds and ends of boxes to deal with. I'm going to move my desk this evening (with Hubby's help, of course) into our Office/Spare Room/Guest Room. And get my area of it set up, at least. And cleaned up, that way, when Hubby is ready to do his stuff, it'll be pretty simple and easy. Without both of us needing to be able to spread out to clean things up and all that. I'm excited, it's going to look great!

I've also been eating better and decided that I wanted to walk to my lunch everyday. It's been wonderful, because there's a Panera about a mile away that I walk to and from 3x a week, even if I don't eat there, and it has this beautiful outdoor patio to sit at. I've started slimming up, which is nice to realize. And also the walking helps me muse and think things out that I need to without concentrating on driving.

Also, my Birthday is coming up, about 2 weeks away. I'm turning 23. Hubby is apparently Plotting Something. I have no idea what, but I feel bad because I was talking about my BD and he finally just said, "I'm Plotting! Quit trying to figure something out to do!" I'm rather bad at getting surprised, I guess. I'm looking forward to seeing what he comes up with.

Feels like I'm starting a new chapter in my life right now.... With where I'm going in school, where we're at as a couple. We're celebrating 2 years in 3 weeks, I'm turning 23 in 2 weeks, and we're both figuring out our career paths, so to speak.

Speaking of Life. Been doing a lot of thinking about what I want to do. And I've come to the realization that I honestly don't want to do much else (right now, at least) than get a degree in child education, do some preschool/daycare teaching, and be a Mom. That may change in a few years time, but honestly, right now, I just want to live my life. I don't want to try to follow some grand meta-narrative about how I ought to be doing this because that happened or this did.

(Now, to clarify, I have the utmost respect for people who are able to do a career and be a parent and have a huge goal for their life. It's just not me right now.)

And maybe in a few years time (or several years time!), I'll decide I want to keep going on with my career path. Or maybe I'll decide that it wasn't really for me and I'm content with where I am.

Hubby and I have been talking a great deal about this because of things going on in our lives right now and where we're at. And we're in agreement.

You know all what I want right now? A good job where I can work with kids. A good career job for Hubby who can stay there and not mind being there for the next 10-15 years. A house with a yard within the next 5-7 years. A puppy. And a baby or two. That's all I really want. And right now, that's all that really matters.

No needing to follow grand plans or schemes, no following some grand narrative of how my life should be. No. Just simple.

I used to not understand people who seemed to just live without seeming to want more than just a job, home, family.

Well, now I do.

And really. Is there anything wrong with wanting to just be a mom or just be a dad? That seems like a worthwhile lifetime goal, in and of itself.

New Thing All Around

Hello there,


Yes, I did just post yesterday but I can actually expound on it now. 


Our best friends gave birth to a little boy yesterday around 7pm! Sooo excited for them. Cannot wait to go down and see them and hold that gorgeous honorary nephew! 


Also, sis-in-law and bro are pregnant. Due in January, so that is also exciting. 


And my other friend is due in 9 days! She's also expecting a gorgeous little boy. 


So many babies around or going to be around. How exciting!! 


Today is going to be a good day. I don't have work tomorrow because Hubby's little cousin is graduating from 6th grade, and we're driving up tonight to be with them. Also, Dad-in-love is flying out along with Hubby's aunt, whom I adore (Well, I adore all of our family), just haven't seen her in a long while. Since Hubby's graduation, actually. I really wish Brother and Mom-in-Love could come too. Going to miss them dearly.  


However, excited to be seeing them this weekend and also with having a day off tomorrow, thus 3 day weekend! 


Oh. Notice anything different? Why yes, I did cut my hair! No? Oh. You mean the layout? 


It was time for something different, and this felt more like me at the moment than the other one (though it is a favorite and I'll probably switch to that one again at some point). Reminds me of a faerie gypsy type.


It's been nice around the house, lately. Lots of relaxing and a very calming summertime so far. It's been amazing. Also been getting lots more sleep. I've been going to bed by 10 or 11 every night this week, and wow. Feel so good. 


Also been accepting Facts as true, which has been very healthy for me. 


Overall, it's been a good week. And am very happy it's summertime. 


We're also plotting our 2nd year Anniversary. So excited and can hardly believe it's been 2 years (well, almost)! 

Babies!

Well, it appears everyone's either getting pregnant or giving birth. 


Babies everywhere. How exciting.


And in case you're wondering, no, not yet. Soon, but not yet. And yes, we have talked about it. 


Congratulations to my friends. You know who you are. So happy for all of you! 


Oh crap. I need to figure out gifts. Eep! 


Much love. *Muah* 

A wedding! I love weddings! Drinks all around!

Well.


It's that time of year again, though instead of like last year where it was just weddings, now it's babies and weddings. 


Dear friends are getting married. Also, dear friends are having their first baby! Such an odd spot Hubby and I are in at our age, I suppose. Our friends are either getting married or having kids. Whee! Makes for a not boring summer, I suppose. 


On that note, cue beginning of wedding season for the next few weeks. We're off this afternoon (in half an hour, actually) for a wedding (yay!). We won't be back till Sunday sometime.


So, ta for now. Hope you have a lovely weekend, and enjoy this fun season!

Life and all that jazz....

Well, it's been a month. And what a month. Hard to believe time's flown by that fast. Haven't had as much success as I would have hoped to get things cleared up in my own head, but that's life for you, I suppose.

Thanksgiving was very fun. We spent it at Hubby's aunt's house, and had amazing food, good fellowship, and just hanging out time. Hard to believe Thanksgiving has come and gone. December is tomorrow. Where on earth did the month go? It's crazy how fast this year has been going.

Hubby graduates in a few weeks which means both of us have finals and papers piled on to finish up before the end of school. Which also means the house is in disarray to the point of making me want to scream, but it's either cleaning or writing the 15 page research paper I have due... So the cleaning gets put on hold. But once this paper is done, I shall do a massive cleaning, decorating of our house, and loads of baking. I'll probably end up doing that Wednesday night, since I'm having some girlfriends over to do a Girl's Night Thursday. So...yah, Wednesday shall be my designated clean, bake, and cook day.

We found out a few weeks ago that both of our best friends are expecting babies (one, in fact, is expecting twins!). Such an amazing thing to hear! We're so happy for them!! Talk about a wonderful Christmas present. Both of them are going to make such good parents. Can't wait to have little ones running around calling me "Aunti!" Hehe.

Speaking of that fifteen page research paper....I should get to it. I'll be back more regularly now, though I really don't know how many actually read this.

Merry Christmas!

Monday...Ugh.

So...it's Monday. Bleh. It makes this week worst too, cause I had last Monday off (yay for Pres' Day!). When I restarted this, I meant to post pretty regularly, but real life caught up with me over the last couple of weeks, and I didn't have anything to write on. Well, I had a lot of stuff I could write on, but nothing I wanted to.

Nothing too exciting in the past couple of weeks. Valentine's Day was lovely. We went out to dinner Friday night, then saw The International (it wasn't very good, unfortunately). Then on Saturday, we relaxed, and went out to see Coraline 3D (thanks to some good friends who gave us some $ as a Valentine's Day gift). Then Sunday we just relaxed, found out I had Monday off...so it truly felt like an extended Valentine's weekend, which was lovely.

Last week wasn't as good, unfortunately. Aaron and I both weren't feeling good all week, which made us more irritable, but we were able to talk out some stuff, which was good. The weekend was very nice. Went down to LA and Hollywood on Saturday, relaxed on Sunday, saw Twilight that night at the dollar theater (my soul still hurts!!). I don't know how anyone actually likes that story...it's horribly written, the characters are either under-developed or way over the top, and any instance of an interesting sub-plot is effectively killed. Plus you should never make a movie assuming the people who are going to watch it have read the book. Foolish and prideful. Ahh...what I do in order to relate to my Jr Highers.

Now it's Monday. Whee...? Wish the weekend could have been longer. This week should be decent, though. The end of the week is going to be fun. Thursday Aaron and I get to go see A Midsummer's Night Dream, getting put on by one of the high schools around here. The girl doing the costumes is in our youth group, so it'll be fun. Then Saturday I'm getting my hair done and have a Murder Mystery to go to that night! Next weekend is Winter Camp (hooray!). Busy next couple of weeks.

You know what's bad at the moment? Being married and wanting a baby. Hehe. I know we can't yet, we should at least wait until Aaron graduates, but damn...the longing's there. Especially whenever I see a cute little one. Saw a little baby a couple weeks ago, and I went, "Aww...I want one!" Silly biological clock ticking. All in good and God's time, I know. Doesn't mean I can't want one now...but perhaps I should be careful what I wish for? God has a sense of humor...

I've been trying to get back into writing...and I was rereading some of the stories I had started/written, and sometimes I can hardly believe that was me writing...it feels like my muse took off and ran. Or my imagination died because I've seen too much of the decaying world...and it feels like anything I try to write will be depressive and dark. Which might not be such a bad thing...So far, I have no idea of any kind of story to work on. Most of the stuff I've been writing is poetry to help me work out emotions, issues, and pains I've been dealing with. I can't really do that with stories...here's hoping my muse comes back soon. It should, she always returns.

Well, back to work for me, I suppose. And it's only 9:30. Wow...this day is going to be incredibly long.