Thankful...

I hate days like these. 


EDIT:


As you  might be able to tell, today hasn't been so very good. I messed up on some stuff, and neglected some others. I've been kicking myself/beating myself up about them all morning, and I finally decided that I'm going to try to make the best of it.


So, without further ado, I'm going to write some things I'm thankful for. Hopefully it'll get my perspective back. 


I'm incredibly thankful for our Condo. We were sooo very lucky to have found it, and it's treating us wonderfully. I love inviting people over to visit. I love relaxing in the peace and quiet and natural sunlight that streams in from all the open windows and doors. I love the way Alice (our kitten) wanders around and then curls up by the screen door to watch the outside. I love how relaxing it is for me to be writing at my desk or reading on the bed while Hubby is working on his computer. Or even last night, when he was in the garage and I was tinkering in the kitchen with a friend, and we could still hold a conversation because all the doors were open to let a breeze in. 


I'm thankful for my orchids. This seems like a funny one to be thankful for, but flowers (especially orchids) always remind me that there's beauty in the world, no matter what. That no matter what happens, all the decay and fallen-ness of the world, there's beauty in the world. The decay doesn't hinder it, it enhances it. I'm incredibly thankful for both of the orchid plants I have gotten as gifts (from my wonderful Hubby and my boss' wife as an Easter gift) that help remind me of beauty and love and good. One is on my desk and the other is on the kitchen table. 


I'm thankful I have a job, even if it's not what I want to be doing. It provides for us (along with Hubby's), there's no fear of being fired (unless I do something really bad), and the hours are reliable. I'm thankful it provides money so we can have gas in the car, bills paid, and a fridge and cupboards full of food. Even with money tight, I can rely that on the 15th/1st of every month, I will get a paycheck. 


I'm thankful for dear friends who are helpful, sympathetic, and understanding. Who listen to me vent and cry and rant and help me get through it. Who care enough to gently tell me that I'm probably being too hard on myself, that I need to breathe, and reorient myself properly, instead of freaking out over and over and over again. Who know to let me vent and rant or when to calm me down. I am very thankful for the friends I have, and am incredibly lucky to have them.


I'm incredibly thankful for Hubby. I'm very lucky to have met him. He's everything I've ever wanted for a husband and way more than I ever hoped for. He's understanding and kind and gentle and strong. I love how we cuddle up at night and talk. The way his eyes light up when looking at me. The way he gets when talking about something he's passionate about. How he does stuff purposefully to make me start giggling or laughing. The way we can talk about anything. I love the way he smirks right before he does something to tease me/make me laugh/melt. I'm thankful we work things out, and strive to make each other better. I'm thankful how we both want our marriage to be stronger and deeper and fuller. How we both refuse to just "settle" when we know we need to work on something. Most of all, I love the way we fit together. I am so thankful for Hubby, and I wouldn't be where I am today without him. 


I am thankful I have Peace, again.