Alone

So. We leave on our cruise in 6 weeks, 4 days. No, I'm not counting down. Who said anything about counting down? It's not like we're extremely excited to be going on vacation for a grand total of 9 1/2 days or anything. Nope. Not at all. 

This weekend was very nice and relaxing, though not long enough (as always). We spent most of it relaxed, watching movies and hanging out with Hubby's cousin. Sunday was a BBQ for the Fourth with our condo complex, where we got to meet a lot of our neighbors and eat good food, and then shoot off fireworks. Then yesterday we slept in till noon, Hubby and I made breakfast for each other, and then got to visit with a good friend and his little daughter who were driving up from San Marcos. That was fun. We had Ruby's, I got stickers all over me thanks to the little one, and then played around a fountain and looked at Henna tattoos. All in all, a wonderful weekend. 


Life, at the moment, is incredibly frustrating. It's that whole feeling of being almost there to where things will change but it's not quite there yet and you're doing this balancing act in between. I absolutely hate that feeling. It's the same one you get when you're flying, right as you're taking off but not quite there yet, the sudden dip in your stomach and your ears aren't quite popped. That annoying feeling.

I feel very Alone right now. I realize I have an amazing Hubby and he does help a lot, but he isn't my entire life (and he shouldn't be! That's unhealthy). But I honestly wish I had closer friends than I do now. Most of them have Left, in one form or another, and it's incredibly hard, especially when I don't really have any good way to make more friends. I am so thankful for the friends I do have. I just wish I had more closer to me as well....

I have got a bit more I'd like to talk about but I don't think this is the right medium, to be honest. 


So back to work I go....and hope things start looking up soon.